Why I do it

I know what it is like to struggle with your body (and mind) and not know what to do.

As a youth I did gymnastics, trampolining and athletics. As an adult I have been through the mill of gyms, aerobics, dance workouts, running, cycling, spinning, pilates, yoga, interval training, you name it I’ve tried it and I’ve also done a lot of nothing and hiding from it all. I despaired, hated, violated, rejected, battled and resisted my body for as long as I can remember, not looking in mirrors, not wanting to be seen and my behavior patterns were unhealthy.

But now, the years of  re-training myself, my habits, my mind, changing my lifestyle, working hard, asking for help and support has paid off – in a big way – the journey continues, as ever. I am not fixed; I am not fine; I have not reached any pinnacle; I have so much ahead of me and there is daily, sometimes hourly maintenance to do,  but I overcame some major, longstanding hurdles,  and now I help other people do the same.

I have suffered with disordered eating, addiction and depression and work daily and consistently to keep myself happy and healthy. There is maintenance involved, it isn’t always easy, but I have a lot of experience in how to do this, how to keep myself ‘up’ and safe and stop from slipping too far down again.

Over the years I have learned enough to feel confident and able to help other people. I see myself as a ‘partner/encourager/motivator’ in people’s experience. By no means do I claim to know it all or have a quick fix – this isn’t the way it works. Anyone that tells you otherwise is lying.

This year I completed a 7-day intensive Ashtanga Yoga training with Laruga Glaser and another 4 day intensive with Kino MacGregor and have just gained 20 hours Certified Professional Development for using Yoga and Mindfulness for Addictions . I am currently studying for my NVQ Level 4 in Advanced Counselling and Psychotherapy.   I love learning and reading and continuing to deepen my knowledge.

I think the body is an incredible thing and we owe it to ourselves to love it and nurture it. If we look after our body/mind, our experience of life is transformed.

I have quit drinking and smoking and taken up yoga, fitness and dance in the past 5 years. I know how hard it can be to break bad habits and learn good ones, but it can be done and I can help people do it.

I am kind, encouraging, committed and compassionate. I am not a slave driver, but I will make you work and address your problems face on, with constructive feedback, dialogue and a smile. Reshaping our body, and the life it lives, is a difficult thing to do and I aim to make it a positive journey that people want to be on.

I know how much your life can change if you lose that little bit of extra weight,

if you can fit into the dress you used to wear 5 years ago,

if you don’t feel self conscious about your belly for the bikini season,

how incredible it feels to finally be able to do the splits,

lose that ‘baby’ fat on your arms and finally see the muscle tone in your arms!

In the past I struggled and despaired and hid my body and hated it, but through diet, yoga, positive  dialogue with myself and  a consistent practice I am no longer in a desperate battle. I have found methods that work and I can help people do the same.